WHERE TO GO FROM HERE?
I have been considering many things since I watched the movie, God's Not Dead, on Netflix this weekend. I am watching it again now.
For some reason, in the end, when the challenge is made to text all of your friends on your contact list, I hesitated. This shames me. I sent one text and when I considered some of the friends on my list, their beliefs, their anger if I were to do so...well, the hesitation came and fell over me like a heavy brick of concrete which would hem me in and drown me in the place I would be driven to.
Today, I do not have the option to do such a task. Not again until Wednesday and I wonder, who would have been affected by those words last night? Who could/would have been saved had I have followed the direction I felt I was suppose to go in last evening but ran from instead.
I am new to God's family. Rather, I should say that I have recently returned and I am struggling with where I belong. I do not know, with certainty, what my purpose...my mission; my goal in life is. I do know that God loves me and sent His son Jesus to be my savior. I KNOW that I accept this salvation and that NO ONE can take it from me. Yet, the guilt I feel for running last evening has me unsettled today. I must pray for more courage. I must pray for the faith to stand up for what I now believe in. I must pray for others and for the wisdom to know when to speak God's message to them.
Cosmic timing is everything. I use to say that all the time. Now, God's timing is everything and that is what I need to learn. I want to learn to listen to that inner voice which will lead me home.
Where to go from here? I still do not have the answers. Yet, as I typed this out today, I was hearing the answer. "To God's word."
