WHERE TO GO FROM HERE?

WHERE TO GO FROM HERE?

I have been considering many things since I watched the movie, God's Not Dead, on Netflix this weekend.  I am watching it again now.

For some reason, in the end, when the challenge is made to text all of your friends on your contact list, I hesitated.  This shames me.  I sent one text and when I considered some of the friends on my list, their beliefs, their anger if I were to do so...well, the hesitation came and fell over me like a heavy brick of concrete which would hem me in and drown me in the place I would be driven to.

Today, I do not have the option to do such a task.  Not again until Wednesday and I wonder, who would have been affected by those words last night?  Who could/would have been saved had I have followed the direction I felt I was suppose to go in last evening but ran from instead.

I am new to God's family.  Rather, I should say that I have recently returned and I am struggling with where I belong.  I do not know, with certainty, what my purpose...my mission; my goal in life is.  I do know that God loves me and sent His son Jesus to be my savior.  I KNOW that I accept this salvation and that NO ONE can take it from me.  Yet, the guilt I feel for running last evening has me unsettled today.  I must pray for more courage.  I must pray for the faith to stand up for what I now believe in.  I must pray for others and for the wisdom to know when to speak God's message to them. 

Cosmic timing is everything.  I use to say that all the time.  Now, God's timing is everything and that is what I need to learn.  I want to learn to listen to that inner voice which will lead me home.

Where to go from here?  I still do not have the answers.  Yet, as I typed this out today, I was hearing the answer.  "To God's word."